Catching up and Coming Out

It’s been a while since my last entry here and so I thought it was about time to write a bit more.

Since my last blog entry I had my 40th birthday which turned out to be so much more than I expected. After my actual birthday which was a fabulous day, Scott and my friends surprised me with a party on Saturday. My friend Alexia had said she wanted to take me out for sushi for my birthday. She said to be ready to go by 6pm on Saturday so after spending the day working in the garden and digging in the dirt setting some of my pathway, I came in and cleaned up and got dressed to go out. I had been looking forward to this since Scott won’t eat sushi and so I only go with friends on occasions like this. At 6 Sam came to tell me that Alexia was here and that she had a surprise for me. She had brought my friend Sam with her who had just got home from France. This was exciting of course as I hadn’t expected that. I began to suspect that something was going on. They said they wanted to look at my garden, so of course I took them out and showed them and that was fun. When Alexia asked for a glass of water I was sure something was up as she is usually very on task and why should we be waiting around when we are supposed to be going out, right? Then the doorbell rang and so I go to answer it and see that my front lawn is filled with friends carrying food, balloons, gifts, flowers etc! Within minutes I had a house full of people and it was quite clear that we were not going to sushi! I had never had a surprise party before and was so very surprised and felt so much love, it was very overwhelming and I didn’t quite know what to do with myself. So I had a glass of wine and enjoyed some food. There were TWO cakes! And they sang Happy Birthday too. It will be a birthday that I will always remember! Love you all so very much!! Thanks again it was awesome!

As I transition into my 40’s I find myself really coming into being who I really am. Life has taken so many twists and turns this year and it has brought to me so many experience and people into my life that have helped me to define my life purpose. I have lived most of my life feeling fairly alone in my beliefs. Growing up in the south it seemed that there was only one way to look at things spiritually. You were Christian until proven otherwise. I never felt that I could be authentic and call myself a Christian, though I can’t say that I disagree with everything the religion contains. In the past 5 or 6 years I have found that I am far from alone. I still don’t feel that I fit into a particular box and I have yet to completely define myself and I am becoming more comfortable with that as I am getting more comfortable just being. What is it exactly that I am saying? What is it that I actually believe? I believe that we are all one. That the concept of God to me is too expansive to fit one name and one concept. It is personal for each person and we can learn from each other rather than allow our differences to pull us apart. I believe that there are no coincidences that each thing happens for a reason and that there is always a chance to grow and change. I believe that we can all connect to God, Spirit, The universe or whatever we choose to name it and we can find all the answers we need if we choose to listen. I feel that we have lived many lives and are here to learn and to grow and hopefully to move past reincarnating over and over again. You can learn a lot from Jesus, and also from Buddha and Shiva and many others who have walked before us. We all have a spark of the Divine in all us and that is what love is. Love is the answer. I believe there are many ways to describe very similar experiences and if we listen we will see that we are not all that different. Also I believe that when you are open to it the right people and situations appear to show us the way.

Metaphysical? Pagan? Witch? Crazy? Well, I say call me what you wish. I don’t choose a word. I have been known to grow herbs in my garden and use them both for medicine and for their energetic qualities. I meditate and draw from the energy of the universe to guide me. I talk to bugs and bees on occasion and my spirit guides too if they are around. I have been known to dance around open fires under a full moon and while I choose to do so with my clothes on I don’t judge others who might do so otherwise ;). To each their own.
So, there you have it, I’ve come out. Love to you all. Thanks for reading and Good night. 🙂 ❤