4/26/2018
Dear Scott,
I haven’t written in a while. I have been wanting to and while I have sat down a few times to start, the words didn’t come. It’s just too much to write. It has been a big year so far with Sam turning 16 and getting his driver’s license, and Alex turning 18 and graduating next month! So many things I want to talk to you about. I know you see it all. I also see you shining through the boys in all that they do. I know you are proud of them.
6 years ago I made you a promise. I promised to protect the boys. I also promised to keep you alive in our home and our hearts so that the boys would always know you. You were afraid they would forget…
Remember when I first moved here and you would take me hiking? How I would get so nervous just getting out on the trails with you and how I would beg you to turn around because we would have to walk uphill on the way back and I knew I would never make it? How you would make me crazy having to stop every 5 minutes to take a picture that would take you forever to line up just right? Can you believe that I actually love the hills now? That I crave to be on the trail alone?! That it’s actually where I find the most peace?… Lately I have been taking the boys out on hikes with me. They actually want to go too! What’s really interesting is that Alex enjoys the exploration part and wants to go the distance, and Sam enjoys stopping to take photos and capturing the sunsets. Sound familiar? You have managed to leave them here to torture me properly! Haha!! Just kidding…
We decided to take a trip to the coast because Sam wanted to capture a special picture for you to post on Instagram, Alex wanted to explore and hike and I wanted for the 3 of us to be together. I think we all needed a moment to pause from our day to day to remember…
Anyways, today we explored a new place for all of us. We hiked in Mt. Tamalpias State Park. I had to find a trail that we could all be happy with so we wound up doing a 4 mile loop that gave us a mix of everything. It was so beautiful!!! It went from the forest to the ocean and back again. As we hiked out of the forest and got our first glimpse of the ocean I remembered when you first told me about the coast of Northern California, you said it was “Where the forest meets the sea”. Today I got to share that with the boys. I made sure to bore them with every other detail I could think of that you shared with me about whatever else I could think of too lol. We had a good time. We also got on each other’s nerves. I enjoyed it all. It was good to be together, just us. There are no words to express how I feel today, so I will leave with this. We miss you, Scott. You will never be forgotten. You will forever be in our hearts. I Promise.
Love You Always,
Bonnie
